Well today has been the looooongest day ever in the history of long days! I started at 8.30 after organising the kids and dropping them off at the childminders, I drove to work and set up ready as today was the day I start teaching…on my own…properly! I wasn’t nervous at all which is a relief. It went very well and I’m very pleased with my little self.

Then after an afternoon of normal work I started my new course this evening, 6.15 – 9.15. Luckily there’s a nice bunch of people and a very nice tutor so I think it’s going to be fun. I have 21 weeks of teacher training ahead of me but I hope it’ll be worth it.

Sadly, being at the course meant I missed an evening with AB, but we had yesterday. A quiet evening was had by us, healing each other and just being together. AB still feels very guilty about what happened but I’ve told him he has to forgive himself, that I know why it happened and that he had thought he was doing the right thing. We share the opinion that it has made us stronger and now we have talked we know what we want from this relationship. Will we be together forever? I don’t know, but I know that we now know to talk to each other, that we need reassurance and we need to look after each other.

At the moment life is a little stressful, I’m still completing the other course I started back in November (though I’ve nearly finished) plus this course and I’m teaching, starting up a new course for March and all of this is on top of my normal work but I think it’s all going to be worth it in the end…if it doesn’t kill me first!

So I’m going to say goodnight and go to bed, I have another long day tomorrow at the other job but I have plans for the weekend involving the girls so I’m keeping that well and truly in my sites.

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